Thursday, July 22, 2010

The NEWS about lymph nodes

Well, first I had trouble getting the pathology report to doctors. I finally called Park West Tuesday 20th. They said they would fax it to GS and Reg. doctor for me. My reg Doctor (Belitz) called me and broke the news. 
YES, broke it to me so gently. One out of eight had cancer. I cried when I got off the phone. Jeff came in while I was on the phone. So we cried together. 
I just couldn't believe it. I wanted to crawl in a hole somewhere and never come out. 
I took a breath and realized it's OK and it's not the end yet. I will grow old because I found this in time. I am not giving in to this cause I will make it.

OK.....Today I went to GS. He was able to explain everything. My tumor was 1 and 1/2cm. It was close to the muscle (the muscle on my ribs), wasn't in the muscles yet. (that's great news) It was in my nipple. When I had first biopsy, My nipple kept getting a stinging pain which brought tears to my eyes. Now I know why because it was apart of the tissue he was trying to get out. And my nipple was very sensitive and stayed folded downward. I hope that makes sense. Anyways, I will now go see oncologist next Thursday 28th.  GS believes I will need some thing more than just hormone treatment. Probably Chemo. Breath........

I get it. I really do. I must have this and I must be strong and not give up. I get that. I understand that God will help me on this ?????? Journey we will call this. This journey is here for a greater reason or purpose. My wonderful husband Jeff is going to church and is really showing how much he loves me. That is enough for me. But if more great things can happen then so be it. I want my family(everyone!) to know that I couldn't make it without God or them. I love my family even the ones that get on my nerves and push me to the limits. I even love the ones that don't love me any more. May God help those who don't care about me. I want everyone to be in heaven but I can't make them believe.

Sorry about that but I had to get that said. It makes me feel better to write these things out. I just hope someone can see that God makes all things better.

I will keep this up to date. I pray that God will help others not to have to go through this. I will do what I can to help support groups to help find cures for all of us Breast Cancer people(women &men).

1 comment:

  1. Debra,
    I know the lymph node thing is scary, but please know that it is common and that you are not alone. I know many women in my bc support groups who had it in their lymph nodes and they are cancer free and years out. Yes it probably does mean chemo, but you will get through it. One of my favorite verses is "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." It is going to be alright. You have a bright future ahead of you. Praying for you. I'll check in with you soon,

    Kerry Osborne