Tired of Snow...

Please! I love the snow but for three days I have had to miss Rad. I hope I can go tomorrow. The roads are slick today but Jeff made it out. I was so worried. I was very relieved once he called.
I am so upset about missing my appointments this week. I just wanted to get this behind me but I guess all things come in time.
I know God is always right on time but it's really hard to be patient. I am trying to be.

One very important note: Beltz and Foust called yesterday. My eco came back good 64%. One new thing, they have a new program which can tell how hard the heart has to push the blood out. The people who read it aren't sure if mine is normal because they never tested anyone that has been on chemo and herceptin. So Foust said the heart Dr recommend more eco's which he was already going to do anyways. So, for now we don't need to worry.


Kids had a blast in the snow. They made a snow fort. It is over 5 ft tall. It's cool.

This is what helps me everyday.............Faith......

Saturday, January 08, 2011

Faith is God's antidote to fear by Rick Warren

Then Caleb silenced the people before Moses and said, "We should go up and take possession of the land, for we can certainly do it." (Numbers 13:30 NIV) " Faith is what allows us to declare in confidence that God is with us no matter what happens." The way to overcome our fears is to follow Jesus in faith. Our faith is what allows us to enter the future -- not with a question mark -- but with an exclamation point! Faith is what allows us to declare in confidence that God is with us no matter what happens. We are certain God is for us and certain he has our best interests at heart. Through faith, we know that God is working all things out for our good -- if we love God and are following the commands of Jesus (Romans 8:28). If you are a believer, the Bible says all things are working together for good -- not that all things are good -- but working together for your good and the Glory of God. There is no difficulty, dilemma, defeat, or disaster in the life of a believer that God can’t ultimately get some good out of – so what is there to fear, as we enter this Decade of Destiny? When you face the future, what do you see?  Do you look at it with eyes of doubt?  With eyes of cynicism?  With eyes of expecting the worse?  You have two choices about the future – You can either face the future as a cynic, a doubter, with negative thoughts, expecting the worse, or … You can face the future expecting God to be with you and that His goodness and His mercy will follow you all the days of your life.   If like this then you can sign up and receive them daily by using the link below: http://profile.purposedriven.com/managesubscriptionssimple.aspx  I know that all things are possible through Christ our Savior. I am not worried about my health cause I know he is in control and I just have to try to listen and do what he says is best. I know that sometimes it's hard to know what he wants me to do but with prayer and help from my husband we are making the best choices we can. No matter the out come God will prevail. We must hold on to our faith.

Radaition update..

Well, Dr. explained things better today. He want be getting rad too close to throat but it could be close enough to cause scratchy throat. If it does cause problems they can adjust it a little.

Today was weird. Well first of all, We were setting there at hospital fixin to get my egco done when my phone rang. It was rad. The machine that does rad was tore up and it would be 1-2 hrs before tech could get there to fix it. Well I had to change to 2pm instead of my 9am. When I got done and was on my way home I remebered I need to have tires rotated. So I called Jeff and said that I would go get that done this morning. Guess what???? Their machine was tore up too. I called him back and told him that someone is telling me to go home. So I did.

I did go to Walmart and to rad after lunch today. Things went well.

Strange day.

Confussed..........

I am so confused. I went for rad treatment and now he is treating lymph but he is treating the ones up above my breast close to my neck too. The other Dr said he wouldn't treat this area. But my concern is that since my one lymph was letting the cancer out of the capsule then we should treat it. My oncologist said he would probably treat it because cancer from the breast can travel up to those lymph nodes but he said let the rad Drs help us decide.
So do I treat all of it and deal with damage to my throat and swelling of the arm and infections if I get cut or scratched along with the damage it does to muscles and lungs.
I just don't want it to come back later in life. But even though I go through all of this it could come back any ways. So what to do. I pray that God will help us make the right chooses. I just want this to be gone and get on with my life.
I am trying to talk to people who have been through this and might be able to shine some light on this better for us.
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Good news
My herceptin went great. No side effects and I feel great today. So it should be a breeze. I did get sleepy due to benadral but I ate taco and bean burrito on the way home. I can taste food and I am loving it. That was my Christmas wish and I got it. I thank God for letting me taste food again. I enjoyed sweets again.

Thrird day........

Well, the computers were down today so they were 30 min behind. They were going to send us home but computers came up. I got to go back around 9:15am. I asked to see dr. Jeff & I talk about the rad and we thought it would be best to get lymph nodes too. So I talked to Dr. He was iffy about it but said we would have to be careful with swelling of the arm and infections. I can't get any scratches on my left arm. It would get infected really bad. That would be better than taking a chance of it coming back later somewhere else and taking my life.

Any ways, I will be late tomorrow for hercept. due to readjusting the rad site. They are calling them and letting them know I will be 30 mins late. I'm just glad Jeff will be with me.

Second day of Rad......

I had my second treatment of radiation. So far no pain or redness. Doctor checked me out and said everything looked great. He did say that my skin looked thin. I might have to have fluid taken out of expander. I hope not but we will have to keep a close eye on it. If it starts filling tight then I will have too. I am so ready to be done with all of this.
My hair is trying to come back. It looks like an old mans head. With the peach fuzz on top and ring of hair on the bottom. I am just glad it's coming back. I can't wait to have it back.


Thanks to everyone who makes me smile cause that helps more than anything. It great to have friends and family to make me laugh.

Radiation begins....

Well, I went last week and this Wed. to get marked for radiation. I have three big x marks one under each arm and one on the breast. I have first treatment next Monday. It seems like an easy thing to do. I lay down on my back and hold on to some handles. They make shore I am centered on the machine. Then this huge thing will go over top and send radiation to that area.
I also go for first, Hercepton. I was going to get it last week but due to ice on the roads, we didn't make it. I go next Thursday.  I am very nervous about the Hercept. I am sure it will go well.

God has been Great!!! He has helped me through this. I have not had many side affects so far. I hope things continue to go well which I am sure they will. Thanks for all the prayers cause they really do help. Jeff and the kids are doing well.
Merry Christmas to everyone. May God bless everyone who reads my blog cause many of you have blessed me already. Thanks!!!
 God is the reason!!!!!!!!!!